Hey gang, long time no.... ANYTHING.

Yeah, for anyone who may be interested, brokenseraphim is returning to DevArt and will hopefully be busting out something interesting within the week. I apologize for the ridiculously large absence, but real life kidnapped me and tied me up in the closet. On the drawing board: SONGS! Not just lyrics either, but hopefully actual songs. First up will probably be some jam sessions pounded out with my brother as a violin/viola or violin/guitar duet, then I'll hopefully be able to move up to cranking out sheet music. The stuff's hella time consuming. There might be some poetry or drawings in the future, but more likely is digital art, and music is going to be my priority. Should be fun, eh mates?

In other news: I'm sick... AGAIN... Lord I hate my immune system.

Note: I don't care if I misspelled the title of this journal <.< I'm a heck of a lot better than some members of 't3h interweb, lawl'.

So, just for everyones information - yes, share my emo-ness! - I am once again single. Hot stuff <.< I'll possibly be a bit out of it (as in, DEAD TO LIFE) for a little while. I apologize in advance for this interruption of your regularly scheduled Kei-kun. Because we all know how extraordinarily reliable and up to date I am ^_^

PS-ness: I apologize for the lack of detail. It's for the sake of those who don't care or don't want to hear about my random 'woe is me' updates. I'm not being evasive <.<

Hello all!

Life's going pretty decent, I'd say. My job situation is unchanged, but I'm still working on it, and I'm optimistic. I'm getting to spend quite a bit of time with friends and family, which is awesome, and my awesomely awesome best friend type person (or one of them) - FaithfulHibiya - is back from a multi-month trip to Africa! It was really great to get back in touch with her after FOREVER, so I'm a happy Kei-kun at the moment ^_^

Also, may I direct your attention here. This is a deviation I did more or less at the request of one of my friends, sailorz360. It marks the beginning of a possible string of requests that I will be attempting to fill. In other words, you request it, I'll try to do it. So bring it on, people!

If you comment

1- I'll answer with something random about you.
2- I'll dare you to try something.
3- I'll say a color I associate with you.
4- I'll tell you something I like about you.
5- I'll tell you something I always remember about you / a first memory about you.
6- I'll tell you what animal you remind me of.
7- I'll ask you something I always wanted to ask you.
8- If I do this for you, you must put this in your journal



PS: I miss you, my Loveless!

I love my life, I really honestly do. I am one of the most blessed people in the entire world. But sometimes I wish that I didn't have depression and could enjoy it a bit more...

See, it's annoying because I know other people have handled much worse with much more grace. I myself, I have a very scarred and battered spirit from my long list of experiences. I can't seem to help it. At least those scars help protect me from new wounds... usually.

I am INCREDIBLY happy because I'm in a relationship with an amazing person that I've liked since forever, and my feelings seem to get deeper every day: But at the same time it terrifies me. You see, my relationships have always tended to end rather badly. I don't know why, they just do. And my last relationship in particular left me very scarred when it cut off. I went months scared shitless of anything resembling a lasting attachment to someone. I don't regret at all putting aside that fear: I'd do it again for Loveless... She's amazing...

But that terror occasionally surfaces, just to remind me that it's there, whispering with its dark corrosive voice to be careful.

I'm going to fight this bastard in me. It's NOT going to ruin me again; not with THIS girl... That would be a downright crime. I hope Kamika-chan reads this and knows that I'm going to fight for her. For her, I will put aside my fears and throw myself back into a battle I know I can win. Take that, life.

PS: when I first started this journal, the mood icon was set to uneasy... I changed it right before I submitted ^_^